It's uncommon for me to blog at 1:47pm in the afternoon. But all in a sudden I have inspiration to write.
Let's talk about study pressure.
Not long ago, I came to realise that I have so many people around me putting high hopes on me passing my SPM examination with flying colours. Even though how I much I tell them I might not do well this time compared to PMR, they'll go, "Aiyah, what can Vincent Pang can't do? He'll show us miracles, just like how he did for PMR"
This, of course, turned its energy form of verbal compliment to mental pressure. Those I know currently having high hopes on me are none other than my parents, my siblings who took me as their example, close buddies, friends, temple peeps, Interact and Leo comrades, relatives especially elder cousins, close aunties and uncles, my only grandmother, neighbours(yeah, what the heck?), and etc.
Their blessings which I should appreciate weren't doing any good. Instead, it made me feel that I should push myself harder, thus creating more pressure than usual. In my current situation, I might not be able to create miracles afterall. Straight A1's? Quite impossible, unless miracles do exist.
Worst of all, my parents are a little too confident with me. They will freely let me go anywhere even now because they think I'll achieve the results they wanted.
Honestly, I'm really scared. I'm nervous. I'm now feeling the lack of confidence to the extend I just hope I'll get straight credits instead of A's. What if my results turned out to be a disappointment for everyone whom had high hopes on me?
These few days of staying up to study till late 4am is not doing any good to my body, as we know that sleep can never be accumulated. Just because I can't waste a single minute till showtime in 29 days, I'll let my body suffer for the sake of not failing miserably.
I just can't wait for this stress to be over. It won't be till 48 days later.
"REST" is in my schedule today, but I canceled it this morning. For now, Biology is more important than getting some rest.
After this, for the first time in 8 months, I'll shut down my computer for today.
Not long ago, I came to realise that I have so many people around me putting high hopes on me passing my SPM examination with flying colours. Even though how I much I tell them I might not do well this time compared to PMR, they'll go, "Aiyah, what can Vincent Pang can't do? He'll show us miracles, just like how he did for PMR"
This, of course, turned its energy form of verbal compliment to mental pressure. Those I know currently having high hopes on me are none other than my parents, my siblings who took me as their example, close buddies, friends, temple peeps, Interact and Leo comrades, relatives especially elder cousins, close aunties and uncles, my only grandmother, neighbours(yeah, what the heck?), and etc.
Their blessings which I should appreciate weren't doing any good. Instead, it made me feel that I should push myself harder, thus creating more pressure than usual. In my current situation, I might not be able to create miracles afterall. Straight A1's? Quite impossible, unless miracles do exist.
Worst of all, my parents are a little too confident with me. They will freely let me go anywhere even now because they think I'll achieve the results they wanted.
Honestly, I'm really scared. I'm nervous. I'm now feeling the lack of confidence to the extend I just hope I'll get straight credits instead of A's. What if my results turned out to be a disappointment for everyone whom had high hopes on me?
These few days of staying up to study till late 4am is not doing any good to my body, as we know that sleep can never be accumulated. Just because I can't waste a single minute till showtime in 29 days, I'll let my body suffer for the sake of not failing miserably.
I just can't wait for this stress to be over. It won't be till 48 days later.
"REST" is in my schedule today, but I canceled it this morning. For now, Biology is more important than getting some rest.
After this, for the first time in 8 months, I'll shut down my computer for today.
Comments
I sound like a granma here.
Eat your veges everyday and take care :P
anyway, ll the best to you, and have faith in yourself! :)
hehe
haha sorry man.. lolx~ gud luck!
nothing else matters:
haha yeah, damn! lolx~ yep, i can c dat from ur post.. haha~
buat spm dulu baru citer..
*sigh together*
Grace:
haha thanks.. would need it at da moment.. =) well, gotta reduce the sacrifice but won't end it.. aih.. once agn, thanks~
don't worry, u don't.. n too bad i don't eat my greens.. =P
ryn:
yep i understand wat u mean.. thanks alot for da advice..
i really appreciate it!
but.. i'm still now working hard enough!
haha gudluck wif ur studies.. n dun stress urself too much like how i did.. *winkz*
good luck! =)
if it's as easy as u said, i won't have remonstrated here earlier lar.. lolx~
thanks anyway~ =)
hey jet! didn't expected 2 u b here! lolx~
yeah dat's true.. thanks man.. party wif u? later i kena rape lar! haha! gud luck 2 u 2~ =)
haha yeah true, i agree..
yeap i will try thanks!
31st? lolx~ it's the only EMPTY day in my schedule~ lolx~ afterall, i'll need some guidance from u 2 in certain areas, if u wouldn't mind.. =D
yes maam! *salute*
appreciate ur advice, thanks! =)
but, there's no time to lose.. =( gotta suffer for da next 25 days..
*hugz*